Hyperbole and a Half by Allie Brosh

I just reread this book, which is a zany but perceptive commentary on life, and the section on "Thoughts and Feelings" hit me particularly hard. I don't often laugh aloud over a book, but it was hilarious because it's so true. I especially liked these comments: 

"...a majority of the feelings I feel are simply a reaction to reality not complying with my arbitrary set of rules"; 

"I am incensed that reality has the audacity to do some of the things when I CLEARLY don't want those things to happen"; 

"It feels unfair when the other things in the world refuse to be governed by my justice system"; 

"I don't like when I can't control what reality is doing."

That just about nails it.

Holy Week

I try not to get political in this blog, but at some point, you just have to call out evil for what it is.  As we approach Easter, the time when we celebrate the Atonement of Christ, Hegseth is directing there to be no quarter shown, which is a war crime. He is publicly praying for U.S. troops to be violent against those who "don't deserve" mercy...in the name of Jesus Christ. The One who taught "blessed are the merciful." The U.S. has threatened to target desalination stations in Iran, actually considering attacking a country's drinking water. This would also be a war crime. They're intentionally cutting Cuba off from vital resources, knowing full well that innocent civilians will die. I have heard it called a genocide. The only oil tanker that has been allowed through was Russian.

Those who "just follow orders" to carry out illegal acts are not immune to prosecution. They will be held just as accountable as their leaders. That is because we expect them to know the law and abide by it, to discern when an order is illegal. I am bewildered, dismayed, horrified by what is being allowed to happen. I would remind elected officials that, in the face of obvious crime, inaction can be considered just as culpable as action.

The Ad for Tai Chi Walking Made Me Laugh

My Facebook feed has lately included several ads for Tai Chi walking for people of a "certain age," and one of the phrases they keep repeating is that I'll be unrecognizable by next month. As if I have a need to go incognito or something.

Do you think if it really works, I could slip out the back door and make a run for it without anyone noticing?

Rising Storm

The wind woke me at three a.m.,

squeezing the house until its joints creaked,

stripping the yard of last year's leaves, scraping it clean.

I wanted to run out into it, stand with face upturned and arms out,

to let its buffeting scour me too, blast away my melancholy, anxiety,

to remind me how puny the world's worries are, compared to its glorious might.

I yearned for the wind to strip away all but hope, leave me fresh and clean, empowered.

But it was dark and cold, and everyone else slept, so I retreated

back under the blanket, curled, clenched like a fist,

and just listened to its roar.

Another successful concert with the Burlington Welsh Ladies Chorus

On the weekend, I performed with the Welsh choir I joined, as guests of the Burlington Welsh Male Chorus. It was held in a beautiful United Church with amazing stained glass windows. We took turns singing (shuffling on and off the stage), and did three songs with both choirs together. 

It's a wonderful thing to sing with the men, those wonderful Welsh tenors, plus the sternum-shaking organ and the multi-coloured light streaming in the windows. So satisfying to be able to use the language again and to sing the Welsh national anthem at full volume with other people.

I'd been practising diligently since Christmas to get ready, since we have to sing "off book" (no sheet music to cheat from). I'm pleased to say I remembered everything, it all went well, and we got a standing ovation at the end.

Tonight is our next practice, and I have 8 new songs to learn, in addition to a handful of familiar warm-ups. Whee! This choir will be a test of my memory skills, I see.

Admitting Even an Introvert Needs Friends

Three friends to the rescue the other night. I was invited over to someone's house to play a card game and eat muffins and cookies and fruit smoothies, and it was just an evening of laughter and good-natured ribbing and constant interruptions of the game to discuss cooking soup and sprouting seeds and setting goals for the new year. I managed to get through the whole evening without curling up in a soggy mess over Brio, which is an improvement. Reminded me that the world is still turning, and people are kind.

Tonight is the Lunar New Year celebration at church, where there's always heaps of good food and a musical program. Another thing to draw me out of myself and force me back into the flow of life. I'm trying to go work out my grief at the gym and remembering to go for walks (weird to walk without him!), but also reminding myself that it's been less than a week and there's no timetable to any of this.

Poignant but Also Hilarious

I mentioned that I was feeling very disoriented, not having Brio following my every move. Son #1 offered to sit and stare forlornly at the bathroom door while I'm showering, if it would make me feel any better.

Somehow, actually, it does.